WordVomit of a different kind.
Have you ever had a moment, when someone in your life does something? Not for you, not even pertaining to you. But all you want to do is thank them? Lately I’ve had several people walk into my life, all of whom have done EXTRAORDINARY things, both before and after I met them, For me and with nothing to do with me. People that talk to me and make me feel like my life isn’t so bad, I haven’t been through all that much or people I read articles and blogs about, people I’ve never met, never will meet and it breaks my heart. Makes me want to wrap them up in a hug and just let them know that someone see’s their pain,strength,weakness.. their emotion. That person may not understand it.. But they see it.
There is this girl. I don’t know much more then her name, the school she attends and that she is very beautiful. I don’t know how she grew up, with what parents, or if she has siblings, but through the words of others I have found out that this beautiful girl has had struggles in her life beyond what a 17 year old should ever be faced with. The fact that she wakes up every morning and keeps going. Thank you. You’re giving the world one more amazing person to learn from.
And the boy that this information indirectly came from. The one who’s promised to be her rock, to help her through everything while her.. father.. is away. The boy that would help the whole world if he had the chance. That knows that all his helping is hurting him in the long run but doesn’t care because he could NEVER leave someone behind when their hurting. A boy who’s listened to me cry on more then one occasion because I can’t get over the ‘horrible’ life I’ve had to endure. Thank you. For keeping the girls like her and I going. Helping us to keep on a path that you yourself may lose sight of in all your generosity, but will find again, with our help.
The girl that hides in her art.. Keeps away from most people and prefers to keep to herself. Quietly loathing her family for the life they can’t help but force upon her. The life that she wants so badly to leave, the life she wants to prove she doesn’t have to have. The little sister that cries when I hurt. That brings me bags of vitamins because she knows I’m not eating and she’s scared. Thank you. You are turning into this strong, beautiful young woman with so many opinions and choices to make, don’t let life scare you.
To the boy back home that I grew up with. Who’s suffered for as long as I have with loss that no one but kids like us can understand. The boy that walked my path before I even knew it was mine and watched in fear as his ‘babygirl’ stepped into the fire. The boy that texts me every chance he can, making sure I’m okay. The boy that would get in his car in a seconds notice and drive for 18 hours if I needed him to. Thank you. You are the most important family I have. You’re my big brother. My other half. You get me from the inside out.
These are the kind of people that I want to thank, that I wish I knew better. To have more reason to put behind the ‘thank you’s. But need nothing more then a cursory glance at them to know they deserve it. The people I want to live my life for. The people I wish more would live their lives for. You are the people even when weak, keep going, keep giving the rest of us the hope we need. To show us where it is we are ment to go. You are the people that could be a complete stranger and turn someones life upside and help them in ways they’ll never understand. I wish there was a better way in this world to say these things. But all I have is..
Thank you.
